Pain

Pain is something with which I have very little firsthand experience. I have seen quite a bit of it thought through my life. In this last year alone I have been to more funerals than I care to count. However while these people may have been important to the people around me I have for the most part remained emotionless through all of them. I try to be supportive of my friends and family who have lost those close to them but I honestly cannot relate. The closest I have come to and I hate to say it this way was when a classmate of mine hung himself when I was in sixth grade. This last year I saw what pain looked like when the person who was hands down the smartest person in my entire school, who sat at my table every day in a science class five years ahead of other people his age decided one day on the way to school to lay down in front of a train. Even then I didn’t feel anything until I shook his parents’ hands. I have no good advice here no overarching message I leave that duty to Lewis who actually understood what pain meant. I feel lucky that at this point in my life I have not yet had to deal with any true pain physical or emotional however what I will remember though is this when I do have something happen in my life as is inevitable I will remember to turn to God and remember that he works in all things for the good of those who love him. This is easy to say now but when the time comes I will remember as should we all.